Mothers Day at Eagle River

Sometimes it's hard for me to even put down in words what motherhood means to me.  Sometimes, I let those ugly negative thoughts enter my brain.  Thoughts of inadequacy.  Sometimes, I am so exhausted at the end of the day that I don't know how I'm gonna wake up + do it all over again.  Sometimes, I want time to myself + then the minute I get it, my thoughts are consumed with my girls.  Motherhood is a sacred, tricky, confusing, overwhelming, + more love than I know what to do with type of thing.  I am humbled every single day at some point of how lucky I am to have the influence of my girls in my life.  Being a mother makes me love + respect my own mother on a deeper level.  Motherhood is lots of laughs, lots of snuggles, lots of kisses, lots of story times, + lots + lots + lots + lots of love.  It's the BEST thing I've ever done.  It's also the hardest thing I have ever done.  It's my most sacred calling.  I have never experienced joy like this before.  I have never loved on this level before.  I have never been more exhausted in my life.  I have so much to give my girls + they are giving me so much more in return.  I don't know how Heavenly Father entrusted me with these two sweet spirits, but, I am so GLAD he did. 

After church on mothers day, Blake took us up Eagle River & we went on a hike.  Our very first hike in Alaska!  We were so jumpy + scared of bears coming out of the wood works to eat us, that we spent the first half of the hike looking up + reading all the different things to do in a bear encounter haha.  Eagle River is absolutely stunning.  The river has a sandy sand bar out on it & the girls absolutely loved digging + playing.  I thoroughly enjoyed my mothers day hanging out with the 3 people I love the very most + doing something I love doing.  Plus, my little London takes after me.  She lights right up & her mouth is going one hundred miles a minute when we get her out in nature.  Makes my mama heart so happy.